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"Starbucks says they are going to start putting religious quotes on cups. The very first one will say, 'Jesus! This cup is expensive!'" --Conan O'Brien

If I Knew

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another dayto say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,

And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

The Difference A Day Can Make

Yes I can change over night. Which look do you prefer? haha

Haunted Wood

Well last night was our haunted woods. It was really fun. Scared some people and had some good laughs. We even had some people leave cuz they were scared. That was funny. Well I had the lovely joy of baby sitting last night as well...which I'm glad I had that party to go to so I wasn't sitting at home with two kids all night. My baby girl was scared not to long after we got there. It was still day light and people were getting it all ready and she was crying. It only got worse when it got dark. I was afraid of that. Since I was part of the whole event I wouldn't be able to stay with her. I ended up being a tour guide through the woods. That was fun. My friend's little boy, was my buddy all night. He wouldn't let me put him down. He just turned three. He had a death grip on me last night. He was so scared he went through it THREE times just cuz he didn't didn't want me to let him down. As I was walking backwards thru the woods with the groups, he would say....*Watch out!* I asked him why? * There something behind you* He was so cute. Then he would say * don't go that way, don't go that way* . Well I came home and go in the shower to get all the make up off my face and all the blood off. That didn't work too well. I scrubbed and scrubbed. I'm sill red. its every where and I have a baby shower to go to today. So I think I might need to take two or three showers b4 I go ....or just stay in for an hour. I don't wanna show up at my best friends shower with stained skin. Man this sooo fun having my nephew here. You wouldn't think they were cousins who never see each other but more like brother and sister who live together. Now as I'm typing this they are both in my room and its already a mess. So I must go now before they break something again......Oh yeah they broke something this morning. Yesterday I went out side and some how we got locked outta the house man was I pissed. I said some pretty words I never say in front of kids. So......I better go before something else happens.

Inside Your Heaven

I've been down
now I'm blessed
I've felt a revelation coming round
I guess it's right
It's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive

You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
When the storm blows your way
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains fall I'll still be here
Holding you until the day I die

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
When the storm blows your way
I wanna be inside your heaven

Edge Of Madness

Well I just got in. I had a pretty good time. It ended up only taking like 2 and a half hours. There were three houses. The second one I got the joy of being the leader till it got pitch black and Micheal Myers pops out and your in this maze and you dont know where the hell to go. I tried to talk to him ask where the hell do i go..... we went around in a circle then down to a dead end. It got pretty annoying. Cuz they were only suspose to be 4 or 5 at a time. We were so lost people started piling in the maze. It started getting hot....finally someone swung the door open so we could see the light to get out. They had good sound effects. They had a coffen ride. They put you in a coffen. Your laying there a few seconds then the bottom falls out and you go hauling butt down. It was fun but I wouldnt go back tomorrow and pay another 25 bucks for it. I could tell alot more but Im not gonna go detail for detail. Id be sitting here forever. I will say though in the sanitarium ...there was a room with three toliets and I started talking to the actor and she says look at my gold fish as she points in the toliet. I ask her whats his name she says PeyPey they the toliets shoot up water and she laffs and says PeyPey its short for pee pee. HAHAHA They played good music there inside and outside the houses. After we left we went to walmart looking at halloween stuff. My friend is having a haunted woods at her house next weekend and Im gonna be part of it. It will be....we can scare some little kids. I can say I cussed ALOT to night. I knew i would.

Last Minute Plans

Well I didnt make it on last night to write anything so here I am today. After I got off work I was told we had a birthday party to go to. I had totally forgot about. Luckly I didnt opt to work late cuz I had just enough time to go home and shower and be out the door. Soooo........ last night a few friend say they are going this is three hour haunted house. I LOVE haunted houses. Its 25 bucks to get in. So....thats where Ill be to night. Ill have to tell you about it when I get back

Cold

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high

I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

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K-9 Unit

Wow today I have something to write about. The highlight of my day was the K-9 unit comming to work to show the dogs to the kids. They had a drug dog and a missing person dog. They did a demonstration witht he drug dog. They hid a bag and had the dog search for the drugs. After that they got a call and the drug dog had to get back to work. The kids got to pet the missing persons dog. They had fun. Even I enjoyed watching. My brother is suspose to come over tonight said he would just stay over. Him and his GF are broken up again. Well this is an on going thing. Last time he moved all his stuff over and then got back with her. This time he says he is moving to San Antonio. His ex- band member has a band there and want him to come out there. So I guess we will see. Oh and I turned in my request to take my vacation in January so I can visit my honey and his family. Well maybe something interesting will happen tomorrow too.

Why do I have this blog?

I dont really know why I have a blog other then my boyfriend got me into it. My everyday life is dull....Like today....I went to work.....just like every day. Nothing really interesting happened. That only happens every once in a while. SO when it does Ill be sure to post it

On My Own

I really like this song thought I would post the lyrics

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I’d thought it’d be easy
But no on believes me
I meant all the things that I said
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy that nothing could save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

(On my own!)
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easyI guess I knew that all along
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

To My Future

Well, Today Im trying to figure where to start with packing. I just shreaded 112 pictures of my past and 5 letters of broken promises. Now Im going to get to packing for my future. My future with my most wonderful husband to be. I am so glad I have found some one who loves me as much as he does. Some one who actually shows it. I get so excited when we talk about our future plans. There isnt anyone in the world I would rather be planing the rest of my life with. Sometimes when you think you been through more then you can handle, things just fall into place. He fell right in front of me and here we are. I dont know if he knows how much I really care about him but I hope so. He was brought to me for a reason. I always heard when you least expect it you will find Mr. Right. You cant find love, love will find you.

Happiness

Ever have a realization that hits you like a ton of brick? Like something you already knew but all of a sudden it just really hits. Like something is trying to make sure you truly know. I'm smiling right now. I have been waiting so long for this to happen. I already knew I wanted to be with this person but you hear people say * you just know*. I know with out a doubt I am headed in the right direction with the right person. I hope if he is reading this he is smiling. I don't have to worry anymore. I don't have to struggle with all the crap I did in the past. He has shown me the wonderful side of love. The side where you don't have any worries. The side where you just go to sleep loving that person and wake up loving that person all day. I mean I dreamed of having that perfect relationship. No relationship is perfect but this one comes pretty dang close. We compliment each other so well. We are perfect for each other in so many ways. I couldn't go on with out him in my life. I love this man with all my heart and soul.

Life

Man its hard to explain stuff to kids when they are too young to understand things. They have no sense of time or distance. Im always careful about what I tell kids cuz they remember EVERTHING and it erks me when people tells kids stuff they shouldnt and someone else has to figure out what the right thing to tell them. Its tough. Im a bit ticked at the moment. Having a child mad at me for something someone said. I wish more people would think before they speak. Especially when talking to a kid. I hate when people use kids against people. Thats a horrible guilt trip to play on some one and guess who gets hurt the most.........