Thursday, October 26, 2006

RIP

Those who know, Shawn and I were together for 3 long years and although we did go our seperate ways he will always be remembered. No doubt we had our fallen out but he was a big part of my life back then. I am glad that he has so many friends and fans to up hold his memory. I love his family and sadly can not be there for them. Please show your respects to his parents and any way you feel fit. It is greatly appreciated.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

As The World Turns

Well last night was interesting. The people upstairs had a huge fight. They were freaking loud slamming around and stuff. The cops and the emts came. The lady was flipping out and got taken away in the ambulance. Maybe they took her to a nut house.

In other news my dad is getting married today. I posted a nice long entry about it in My Endless Sadness


I steal have not heard from him. Guess one day several months later I will talk to him and hear him say "Oh yeah I married six months ago" Wont that be nice. Well whatever he can do what he wants now he will have a new daughter.

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Dreams


I guess I have been watching too many demon movies or something. I just woke up from a nap and had another one of those *i am running for my life dreams* This time it was in a clothing store after hours. To much Buffy and Angel I guess. My dreams have been pretty wack lately.

Friday, September 01, 2006

Job Well Done


The best way to give yourself a pat on the back.

Deja vu or did history repeat itself?

Ever find your self sitting in a moment that you thought you would never be in again? Makes you think right? You think ok this is deja vu, but nope cant be because you know you have played this scene before. That can be a pretty shocking moment. But maybe this time the aftermath was differnt.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

My endless sadness

So my mother called me yesterday to tell two things. First, my dad and my brothers girlfriend got in a wreck on his Harley. The bike is totaled but they are fine. Second, my dad is getting married next week. Tears just started rushing down my face. You wonder why? So many reason were running through my head.

  1. His wife of twelve years just pasted away six months ago.
  2. He has only dated this new lady a few weeks.
  3. He didn't even bother to call and tell me.


I tried to hold my self together over the phone. My mom thought my dad might have called me already. She didn't know it would upset me so much. My dad invited my mother and she thought I might wanna fly down for it. I told her no, I wasn't invited and I wouldn't go even if I were still living down there. My brother is going to be the best man. I am always the last to know what's going on. Even when my stepmom was in the hospital really sick. No one bothered to tell me. I was so pissed. I remember them shrugging it off like it was nothing. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Oh she's been in there awhile, didn't know you didn't know, but you should come over for dinner tomorrow your dad is coming"


At that time I wasn't really speaking to my dad and didn't wanna see him. I told them NO Im not coming over tomorrow, while they begged me, I told them I was going to see my stepmom. She was a wonderful women. She was always happy to see me. No matter what I had done or been. I balled my eyes out yesterday when I got off the phone.

I understand my dad is lonely but come on she just pasted away six months ago. Isn't it a bit soon to remarry?

Thursday, August 24, 2006

CHAOS RADIO

Saturday 8-11 pm (eastern standard) Live on Chaos Radio the Heavyskies team will guest. Check out their site for more details. Their slogan says it all.......



Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Ugh

I dunno whats up with blogger but lately my posting has been very annoying. See post below.
Along with other things Iam working on through blogger. And yes at this very moment I am having issuses. That will explain why my typing didnt go back to normal text. Well its not like I had anything else better to write about.....UM yeah I am co-writing a movie and will also be in it. So yeah. FUN!!! Saturday night the movie will be talked about on Chaos Radio. Check it out. Trust me you will love the show. This isnt your typical PG rated show. TUNE IN!!!!!